twohundredandninetyseven.

i didn't decide to give up on you because you're being so harsh to me. seems like you still don't know me after all this while.

twohundredandninetysix.

you found me when i was in pieces.
you picked me up slowly.
you mended me.
.
.
.
you tore me apart.
you threw me everywhere.
now i'm waiting for someone to find me once again.

twohundredandninetyfive.

twohundredandninetyfour.

don't really like people to call me by nick names anymore. mabelline is so much nicer :P

♥myname.

twohundredandninetythree.

slept till 12+ yesterday :X super tired and idk why. logged on to FB to play. then got ready for work. i saw charlotte♥ there :P she was with her boyfriend at first, then she left and came back again with her mum. haha she still remember me. talked/served them. 5 years+ didn't talk to them liao lehhh :D haha miss primary school days.

ambush was super empty yesterday night cause it's monday night? ate clam chowder and sausage linguine with cream sauce :D haha met cindy after work to get back my things then walked her home. spend quite long at her lift there talking to her. left at about 11.45 :X

i wanna smoke again. pfft.

twohundredandninetytwo.

i hope that you're not showing concern because you pity me, but because you really care.

all i know is that my heart is broken and i just need to cry my heart out.

twohundredandninetyone.

work was super tiring yesterday. i think was 9+ going 10 but this 2 tables refused to leave even when we were so obviously closing already ( i was cleaning the menus and jean was clearing the sauces and condiments ) anyway, went to chevron after work with colleagues to bowl. celebrate rachel's birthday (:

♥sexylingerie;P

twohundredandninety.

♥goldnailpolish.

twohundredandeightynine.

twohundredandeightyeight.

i♥michaelbuble.

twohundredandeightyseven.

went to cindy's hse ytd to STUDY! LOL ok la, just helped her with her pw. went to eat ban mian after that :P ahh my lovely ban mian. hahaha. my FIANCEE saw a worm in her ban mian :S and she got a free meal. hahaha eeewwww :X

walked to bubble tea shop and i drank taro ice blended ♥♥!





then walked to jurong spring, wanting to study. went there, take out my chem notes (periodicity! :S) read first page and SLEPT LOL! idk why, too tired i think. but i could actually fall asleep in a hot and stuffy and noisy mac -___- yes, PIG can :P after i woke up then we both went to jp :D walked around and i tried on this 2 tops which is absolutely ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ssss :D someone buy for me? LOL


this is from The Box


my fave!!! from mphosis :D

oh well, planning to go out with cindy darling tmr :D then working on sunday night :D:D

twohundredandeightysix.

you said we're what again? friends? why do i get the feeling that you don't even treat me as a friend?

twohundredandeightyfive.

i coped with your many changes over the past one and a half years. i didn't like what i saw. but yet i stuck by you, because i love you enough to know that the person i fell in love with was somewhere inside. yes, i admit i have changed. and it's only this once. maybe you haven't seen me in a long time so it comes quite a shock to you. or maybe you don't love me enough to know that somewhere inside me, i am still me. and it just happens that my mood was really bad this past month and everything just comes falling down.

yes, i am blaming myself for everything.

twohundredandeightyfour.

Adam Lambert - Time For Miracles

It's late at night and I can't sleep
Missing you just runs too deep
Oh I can't breathe thinking of your smile

Every kiss I can't forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cuz I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us

I just wanna be with you
Cuz living is so hard to do
When all I know is trapped inside your eyes

The future I cannot forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cuz I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us

Baby can you feel it (feel it)
You know I can hear it (hear it)
So can you feel me feel you....

You know it's time....

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love

You know I ain't giving up on us
You know I ain't giving up on
Oh I ain't giving up on us

twohundredandeightythree.

right now, i don't really care what happens to me.
accident, rape, robbery, murder.
nothing matters anymore.
the light in my life has been extinguished so forcefully.

somebody kill me.

twohundredandeightytwo.

i'll just take it that whatever i have given you, i have thrown it away.

twohundredandeightyone.

JUST BATHED! hahaha.

today's work was so much more fun than ytd. ytd's was damn boring. don't like to do afternoon! ): learnt how to take order today. dinner crowd rocks LOL! i love my job. though it's really tiring.

after work went to boon lay shopping centre there to eat DINNER. yes, DINNER, not SUPPER. though it was already 11+ hahaha. nasi lemak. the FAMOUS one. which i don't think it's really nice anyway. adam road one nicer :P

p.s.
i love owl city's vanilla twilight! though everytime i hear it i will feel like crying but it doesn't stop me from loving it. the lyrics is just so awesomely sweet la :D

even though i had expected your answer, it still was like a knife cutting through my heart.
either your feelings can change really fast because of that ONE INCIDENT which triggered it,
or i have been cheated for a long time.

twohundredandeighty.

i can't stand being alone and away from you anymore.

fuck the world.
fuck my life.
fuck school.
fuck work.
fuck me.

twohundredandseventynine.

sometimes we say things we don't mean when we're angry. but i'd never thought you'd be the one who mean what you say.

twohundredandseventyeight.

Owl City - Vanilla Twilight

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake and miss you.
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me.
I'd send a postcard to you dear,
'Cause I wish you were here.

I'll watch the night turn light blue.
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because
When I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you...
Tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.