FOURTEEN.

:D TEN MORE DAYS TO SWEET SIXTEEN!

damn shagged now -__- no more late nights out alrdy ): yepp! from tmr onwards i'll try to be home by 8 :D and YES! i'll do my best (:

had amc today. damn damn hard. tikam-ed all e way and even e open-ended one, i just anyhow think of one number and write it down =X

came home and after bathing put on moisturizer. when pour out onto my hand, a heart came out :D



nice right? hahaha :D

well, tts all (: nights!

THIRTEEN.

rivers test -_- fell asleep again LOL =X last qn 8m, i only wrote 3 lines? then i fainted on e table -__- oh well.

after school went to xinyan's hse with cindy to pass her stuffs then pei-ed eric to xquisite to cut hair. needed to wait like frking long?! -_- he looks nicer. haha.

then went to jurong green to see my class guys play bball for awhile, had late night again. reached hm about 9+? =X

well, from now onwards i won't go hm so late le ba. i also bth -_- damn damn exhausted man ):

TWELVE.

nth much to update. except that i'm damn shagged -_- yeah, next week i'm not gonna stay out late already. CONSERVE ENERGY FOR MY BIRTHDAY! :D lalala. hehehe. speaking of which, it's FOURTEEN days later [hints hints] :D

ahh well, gonna study for my geog test tmr (: rivers and coasts. argh. forests is SO MUCH easier luh. why does everybody say that it's hard and rivers and coasts is so much easier? -___-

fuck. i'm damn fed up right now. ARGH!

ELEVEN.

to all those fuckers who've been talking about me and royston:

why don't all of you just PISS OFF and get on with your LAME FUCKING LIVES?! why the hell are you bothering about us. huh?! what's your fucking problem? nothing better to do is it?! lame asses oOo

TEN.

i'm hicupping now -_- wtf.

reached home abt 10? hahaha =X raining now. so cold ): need to chiong my eng alrdy.

today was a super sucky day [as usual]. chemmy test was...hahaha. don't wanna talk abt it. emath test postponed to tmr. [okay, hicupping's stopped :D] during ss super slack. was reading comic? LOL =X then cindy was reading my seventeen mag. hahaha :D then eng -_- argh. had oral mock exam. ROAR!
reading: 10m
picture: 9m
conversation: 9m
ROAR RIGHT?! super average marks. argh ): must CHIONG and PRACTICE!

no matter what he has done to me, i still love him though i can't forgive him. i really hope people can understand that. love is truly blind...

NINE.

just got back from e hosp. hehe. didn't go school today cause got appt. i was referred to e children's clinic -__- wth? then e doc say tt i got SNAPPING HIP. LOL! funny. then refer me to rehad centre for physiotherapy.

went thr and got appt. at 11am today. at tt time only abt 10am. so went to eat. ate delifrance egg sandwich :D sooooo long nv eat tt alrdy. yummmmmy kehh :D then beside us were 2docs. damn goodlooking. LOL =X then i said to my mum, why are most docs so goodlooking esp e males? LOL :D and she agreed. hahaha!

went for e therapy and e head doc thr also quite goodlooking. LOL okay okay.. i shall stop -__- then my therapist is a girl from nyp (: think attachment (: e therapy was pain ): she was pressing onto my hip so hard, saying tt it will release e tension in e muscles so tt it won't be pain. LOL ironic can ): next week another session after school on tues (:

EIGHT.

hahaha. i'm going crazy over photography :D lalala ((:

planning to go to some places like esplanade, boat quay, sentosa and vivo to take pictures :D get pics like nature, e city, some artworks, statues, etc :D hahaha. it's like. wanna compile all these pics, and maybe next time if i want to get into a photography course or sth, at least i got portfolio know? :D hehehe. this is called planning ahead :D

and YES, i want to get a rly good camera soon :D save up save up!!! hehehe. OR, my bday coming soon. LOL hint hint =X

SEVEN.

lalala school day! :D ghaz is ttly ADDICTED to absolute boyfriend ((: he read e WHOLE SERIES in ONE DAY in CLASS DURING LESSONS! -__-

skipped chemmy with xinyan. she went to westmall to meet her cs peeps then i came home, changed and went out. YEAH, I DIDN'T HAVE TIME TO BATHE! ROAR =X

train-ed to vivo :D walked ard, bought nisa's prezzie. LIKE FINALLY? hahaha :D planning to give her on wed :D early bday prezzie ah. hehehe :D so i'm gonna post e pic first (:


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NICE RIGHT?! hahha. got one for myself too :D then went to SIX and got an anklet :D damn nice kehh?! it's red hearties :D




hahaha :D

went to secret recipe to eat. cappuccino cheesecake :D MUAHAHA. damn nice can :D



oops...left half =X


eep! it's finishing! ):


ohno. who ate my cheesecake T.T LOL, apparently it's me duh -__-


can i have another one pretty please? ):



icelemontea. it's a huge cup!! look at e height! :D nahh, just kidding. it's a pretty SHORT cup -__-

OH...speaking of height... hehehe. i think i've grown -__- IT SUCKS ROAR I DON'T WANNA GROW T.T

came home quite late =X abt 8++? hehehe... dinner was poached salmon, broccoli and rice :D muahaha. yummmmmm :D mum cooked it like e ikea one. though e sauce wasn't tt thick, e taste is still thr :D

i'm planning to wear specs tmr. LOL ok...that's random. bt i actually thought of wearing specs today. LUCKY I DIDN'T -__- cause it was raining quite heavily today. hahaha.

tmr gg appt at nuh.. GONNA MISS SCHOOL GONNA MISS PHY PRACTICAL ELECTRICITY TEST! MUAHAHA :D

need to chiong eng moodle le -__- BYE!! :D

SIX.

love is not equals to sex.
love is not equals to satisfying the other's sexual needs.
love is not equals to submitting yourself to sex.
love is equals to patience.
love is equals to trust.
love is equals to believe.
love is equals to...
love.

爱情是不能解释的。因为爱情是一种很自然的感觉。怎么能解释呢？

people tend to not treasure what they have, until they lose it. only then, they realise what was offered to them. but by the time they realise it, it's too late. for that something they should have cherished... is gone, and will never come back. appreciate the things you have. don't take advantage of it.

i'm hating myself for feeling so much... there's a war raging through my head. i know it's not right... but there's too much an impact that you left on me. hate me all you want, though i wish you really didn't mean that.

FIVE.

thanks to somebody who really really woken me up. yeah, i admit that i fall in love really easily. and i regret not listening to all my friends. yeah, you're right. it serves me right. i thought about it like you told me to, and i've learnt my lesson. never again will i be so easy. never again...

and i regretted letting some things happen between us... i'm just feeling so ashamed of myself.

FOUR.

ROAR!!! fuck off you bastard. tell you don't talk to me still keep msging me, talking to me, begging for another chance. I TELL YOU THIS NOW! I WILL NEVER EVER GIVE YOU ANOTHER CHANCE! i HATE guys who show violence towards girls in public. as kristle says, NO BALLS GUY!!! just FUCK OFF. say what LAST MSG LAST MSG. end up still msg THREE MORE TIMES! i swear, after tmr, if i see you again, or even hear from you again, you're going to get into trouble. I SWEAR!

THREE.

well, was looking through my phone pics and came across these. haha (:



taken at brina's bbq this yr :D i love alcohol. wahaha (:




okay, idk why i like pic. creds to ghazali (:






me and my sister! :D




[we are all wearing fbts!]



SCBs yo! :D










some random ones taken by me (: i love e yellow ixora :D it's like nicest nature pic taken by me and can you believe that i took it with my phone?! i can't...




WOO! cereal party. hahaha. this happened ytd during recess :D it's fun kehh

TWO.

okay, i'm officially sick ):

my jaw and left ear holes still hurting... damn you. seriously damn you. i'm not the one who's humiliated. YOU are. YOU lost your DIGNITY by slapping a girl in front of so many people. i can't believe that i actually held on to you so long. what was i thinking... and yes, that slap woke me up. but not in the way you'd want it. it woke me up so that i could see, finally, who you really are. thanks for that. i finally see how stupid i was. i finally see that all my friends were right about you. and i'm regretting not listening to them in the first place. maybe then, the ending wouldn't be like this. maybe there wouldn't be any ending, cause there wouldn't be any beginning in the first place. i should have listened... "this is what happens when you let your heart take over."

i can't believe you still had the GUTS to call me just now and ask me out. saying that your mum asked cause of your jie's bday. i can't believe that. i told you to be gone. NOBODY, yes, not even your mum, can be an excuse or a reason for me to go out with you. I'M OVER YOU. get that into head.

there's just one thing everyone has to know. I AM A FREE SPIRIT and nothing, not even my husband next time, can bound me. i hate restrictions. i love freedom. i already have my family to give me restrictions. i don't need to cope with somebody else giving me that. and when somebody else gives me restrictions, there'll be a price to pay...

i hate you SF, but i guess i have to say thanks, i'm finally a free soul again.

ONE.

fresh start (:

i really have no regrets. yeah... i'll be a much happier person, a much better person without you. so thus, i say, GOODBYE.