FORTYTHREE.

been thinking alot today as i was doing my ss. been thinking about my life before him and i realised, i was never happy with him. took me so long to realise that huh. yeah, i'm stupid i know. but i'm not gonna let myself fall into the same trap again :D yupp! with my friends thr to do QC [o_o] haha. no guy can be my boyfriend without passing through my friends first :D

decided that i'm not going for counselling anymore. i'll handle everything myself (: and with my friends, i think i can handle this very well. not gonna put any pressure on anybody, but my friends are gonna help me pull this through. i just know it. it's hard to find such sweet devoted friends right? i have FIVE somemore :D people out there, don't jealous please (: well yeah, i can't help but feel as if i don't deserve it considering what i've done in this world. haha (: nah i'm just joking. i'm such an innocent angel in this world :D OKAY, i'm joking about that too ((:

can't help but feel dark clouds gathering above me. it's as if something really really bad is getting ready to butt its ugly head into my life...