TWENTYEIGHT.

i'm sick and tired of this life i have to lead.
i'm sick and tired of all this problems i have to face.
i'm sick and tired of people telling me what to do and what not to do.
i'm sick and tired of lying.
i'm sick and tired of keeping secrets to myself.
i'm sick and tired of having to decide when i don't know how.
i'm sick and tired of being forced to make choices.
i'm sick and tired of disappointing people.
i'm sick and tired of myself.

yes, my chi o's sucks. c6. i can't say that i didn't expect it. because i did. i was just too damn distracted that day. plus i wasn't feeling well. i wasn't even supposed to be there in the exam hall. i was supposed to... sigh.

tmr's eng oral. i can't say that i'm not nervous. because i really am. yeah, i may seem so happy-go-lucky to the whole world. but i'm not. i'm just really tired of having to study. but i'll be doing my best now. yupp, get ready to see mabelline in her prime :D

prelims starts next friday. i can't say that i'm studying. because i'm not. i don't even know where my timetable went. yes. this is how much i don't want to face up to reality. that's bad right? but i made a promise to myself. it's really time to shine. it's really time to chiong. and i WILL do well for my o's. i will. i will...

thanks to my parents for bringing me into this world.
thanks to my sister for supporting me no matter what.
thanks to my friends for being there for me, for understanding me and most of all, for supporting me too.
thanks to my teacher for talking to me today.
thanks to myself, for being strong enough to live till this day.

and thus, i said a final goodbye.