ok, i'm posting alot today.
thinking about stuffs and not doing my revision. ultimate crime. sigh. somebody's gonna scold me if he reads this =X
you know, see couples on the street, have friends with gf/bf, seeing them so happy, abit jealous lei =X. i know not every relationship is perfect. every relationship will have ups and downs. that i know. but then, i always wonder to myself. why is it that all my relationships all went down and no ups? is it the guys? or is it just me? whenever i thought that it's going up, up and up, it all just come crashing down. and i realised that i'm just hiding the truth from myself. i didn't want to face up to reality you see.
when i look back now, i realised. it has been always me. yes, i'm selfish and self-centered when it comes to relationships. yes, i'm really admitting that. i almost never spare a thought for my bfs. there. i said it. and i'm sorry.
well, i've got a resolution. i'm gonna complete my O's first, then i'll change by the time 2008 ends. i'll spare a thought for others. but, i won't let anybody take advantage of me. no more of that. i need to learn how to give and take regarding friendships too. yes, sometimes i feel so taken advantage of when it comes to my girlfriends. i don't know why. is it the fact that i give in to you guys most of the time? the feeling is so not good. yes, you've been there when i needed you. i thank you for that. but, i guess i'll just stop being so naive all the time.
sorry, this girl is gonna undergo some serious attitude changes after O's. hope everything will be better then.
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