twohundredandthirtytwo.

imagine that you'd have to see your loved one in an accident. watch the front bumper of a car knock her down. stare at her every move as she falls. hear her ear-piercing screams. observe as she lay motionless on the road. imagine the shock that you'd feel as you watch, stunned. then you start running towards her. you fall and cradle her in your arms. you scrutinize her face. her whole body is covered in blood. foam is coming out of her mouth. you scream and shout her name. she gives no response, lying still in your arms. you beg, you cry, you wail for the agony to stop. you are oblivious to the sirens. the paramedics arrive but you take no heed. they pull you away, but you continue screaming. the paramedics pronounced her dead. you become hysterical. you become crazy. you could no longer think about anything else except for the fact that SHE IS DEAD. you are sedated. the last thing you see is her bloodied and battered body being covered up. you attempt one last scream but you couldn't hear anything.

the next thing you know, you wake up strapped to a bed. you cannot move. you scream but realise your mouth is covered with a piece of cloth. you struggle and end up getting cut by the straps. you relax. you close your eyes. and replay the whole accident in your head. you cry. you do not want to live anymore. what's the point? you ask yourself. you start sobbing. you start blaming yourself. "if only i had walked her home." "if only i had not made her angry." "if only..." "if only..." the doctor came in. he talks to you but you do not listen to anything. he starts taking off the straps and untie the cloth at your mouth. he does some check-ups. he leaves. you stare into space. thinking, thinking. you see a cup of water by your bedside. you gulp it down. you smash the glass. you close your eyes. you hold it to your throat. you are about to slash it against your throat when you hear a whisper. "don't do it. be strong." it sounds familiar. you open your eyes. you see HER. she is crying. "don't do it." she says again. she comes to hold her hand. you smile. and you know eveything is alright. you know that even though she is dead, she will always be there by your side. you smile wider. "i love you." you whisper. "goodbye." and you let go.

sometimes even if you love someone deeply, the only way for both of you to be happy is to let go. do not suffocate them with your love. soon it will turn into hatred and both of you will be miserable.

twohundredandthirtyone.

had gp promos1 today. "Should censorship be present in the mordern society? Discuss." LOL! i anyhow whack this question only. talked quite alot of crap and i think i won't pass the paper =X wrote like two full pages. HAHA! first time :D wondering why i chose this question? well, cause the others sucked. and this was the best choice. the other question i nearly wanted to choose was about music and how it affects youngsters i think? something like that la. haha so crappy!




will end of with this. act cute LOL! but i love that lolly :D IT'S FROM STICKY!!! hahaha i'm a worshipper of sticky now :D

twohundredandthirty.

just need to tahan two more days of school, one day of exam and two more days of day camp and THE HOLIDAYS WILL OFFICIALLY BEGIN!

though it'll be filled with busy things like my sis's bday, kukup trip and lots of studying, i'm still looking forward to it (:

twohundredandtwentynine.

family; disaster
studies; disaster
love life; disaster

i've even managed to make my parents scream at each other.

what a failure...

twohundredandtwentyeight.

so money, electricity and your things are more important than your own daughter's feelings.

i get it now.

twohundredandtwentyseven.

OMG!

i just realised something.

GP and chi midyrs is just next wednesday. IT'S JUST NEXT WEDNESDAY!!! omgomgomgomg. i'm gonna faint soon z.

luckily hols coming too. next week's last week of sem (: looking forward. need a break from school. though i will be bia-ing for midyrs. who wants join? :D

twohundredandtwentysix.

bear with me cause it's going to be a long post.

8th may. Monday
went out with pyia, aaron and zaini to orchard to find-he gun for the carinival. was raining that day. walked in the rain to Forum. went to toy'r'us and bought one shot gun. haha it's damn colourful with neon green, yellow and orange :D after buying the guys decided to test out the gun and they played it in front of the counter in the stall -_- luckily no customers around LOL! only the staff there. played for awhile, then decided to eat mac. after eating wanted to go off but was still raining, so the guys decided to play with the gun again. went to some corner of forum and started playing. haha. was damn funny i tell you. a lil' retarded =X but was fun. nice to be young right? :D







15th may, friday
one more day till the carnival! (:

didn't have any lessons that day. had fire drill in the morning then went up class to do last minute preparations. after that went out with joalynn, evelyn, aaron and zaini to look for prizes for our games. went to mr teh tarik at 400+ to eat first. ok no offence but that outlet sucks. huayi there the food and drink so much better quality =X

went to vivo after that. were at toys'r'us to get the second gun. had so much fun in there. LOL non stop laughing =X the guys were playing with this voice-changer and they keep imitating ppl. not to mentionm aaron's super funny MIAOW hahaha! walked around the store, had more laughs and fun.









after that went to daiso and saw this super cute bookmarks. we girls bought it and i got the giraffe :D hehe thanks girls for letting me have it :D



while walking around saw this. the spelt "bear" wrongly. like wth. haha. a more difficult word like "elephant" they could spell correctly and not bear?! weird right





went to BEN&JERRY'S after that! hahaha. 5 of us bought one pint to share :D flavour: one cheescake brownie :D nicenice. hahaha. had fun there too :D













having no luck in finding any presents at vivo, we train-ed back to boonlay. bought one box of ritter sport there. i bought gummy bears for myself too! felt super tired at that time. whole body aching ): went to value$ to buy lots of sweets too. while on the way out of jurong point, we saw mr ang. OMG! LOL! but i won't say anything here. cannot spoil his rep (:

reached home ablout 9+ i think? prepared whatever things i needed to bring the next day, gao dim a few things, bathed and conked out on bed. was about 12+ already.

16th may, saturday
CARNIVAL DAY! (:

woke up super early in the morning even though slept super late the previous night. went down to westmall's mac and waited for the rest to come. was so tired ): after eating breakfast went to school to set up everything.



papa ipod and baby ipod (:


















my jie :D hehe



summarise up how tired we felt after the whole carnival. WAS A HUGE HUGE SUCCESS THOUGH! had nonstop business and there was actually queues! totaled up to $1010 for our game stall at the end of everything. -proud beams- 09S7 all the way man :D:D

17may, sunday.
went out in the morning to vivo with mum to find my crocs. couldn't find though. so went to jurong point to get ripples slippers for the time being. went home, felt absolutely tired and went to sleep. didn't even feel like getting up but bo bian. washed up and went to jurong point to meet dinesh and joalynn cause we had a play, Much Ado About Nothing, at fort canning park. ate at BK with dinesh while waiting for joalynn. thanks for the dinner (: went to ntuc to buy some snacks to eat at the play.

train-ed down to clarke quay and asked the station master for directions to fort canning park. turns out it was super near -_- walked there but once inside, we got quite lost. and we had to climb really steep slopes. super tired. we were laughing on the way also la. met one stranger who was also on the way there. he didn't know where to go too! so four of us walked together. finally found the place. was so tired then. body some more still have not recovered from the past two days ):

play was quite nice. though didn't really understand. but that's cause i was talking with my friends during the second part of the play. haha. after the play, went off with joalynn, dinesh, joel and kalis (that how to spell??) walked around clarke quay, stayed some where to lepak then came home. reached home really late =X WHOOPS!

twohundredandtwentyfive.

busy, busy, busy. damn stressed over the MIcarnival. so many things to do, so little time. will post everything on a later date.

thanks to all those who have comforted me and calmed me down today (: love you guys!

twohundredandtwentyfour.

here's the pics for the mother's day lunch :D









okay.. i know i look quite naked in the last two pics. but that's cause i was wearing a tube :D

twohundredandtwentythree.

happy mother's day!

went out for lunch at hotel rendezvous with relatives today. had buffet at straits cafe. food was not bad (: but don't know why couldn't eat so much. okay. surprise surprise! i actually ate durian mousse and durian cake LOL! so wonderful right :D hahaha. i tell you the durian is awesome. okay, that's another surprise (:

after lunch walked all the way from SOTA to orchard road. with heels thank you very much. luckily my heels isn't that painful :D went to orchard point's OG. jie bought crocs there. haha. the design is nice :D dad want to buy for me also but no size -_- all the nice ones left small sizes. LOL! people feet big eh.

after that walked to taka. walked around then bus-ed back home. feet was screaming in pain the whole time la. and now i have a blister on my left heel ): pain!!! slept on the way home.

pics will be uploaded at a later date cause they're with my jie (:

twohundredandtwentytwo.

222nd post! nice number (:

MI'S FLOORBALL TEAM TIED WITH RJC 2-2!!! hahaha. who says we can't have a good match against elite schools? :D

had 2.4 today. wahh seriously suck cock man lol. i only ran like about one or two rounds? hahaha! yes, i know. slacker alert! :D timing was 18.36 thank you very much. worse than my sec school actually. hahaha! but HEY! our 2.4 now have to run under the freaking hot sun with the freaking hot track la. at least at huayi run around school then got so much shelter. roar ): planning to train during the weekends. LOL but knowing me... well. 99% won't go, 1% will go :D hehehe.

goodness, mabelline ang, can you stop being so freaking LAZY?!

should i do up my math tonight? hahaha. yes, being lazy again. and i hate binomial. did i say that before? oh well. i can't wait for the hols to come. need to relieve stress. damn tired these days.

oh yes, i want my luck to change man. i dont know why but nowadays i keep feeling like i'm under some bad luck curse or sth la. arghh. irritating.

one whole day have gone past without me thinking of you. maybe this is going to be easy after all. (:

twohundredandtwentyone.

found out today that thr won't be any lessons on friday cause of rehearsals for the MIcarnival :D hehehehe. was damn happy. then i found out monday no school cause in lieu for vesak day. HAHAHA! double happiness (: seriously. so it's like a super long weekend again!!! -dances around-

(my stupid internet has gone cock. and it's disconnecting and connecting while i'm posting. irritating. tsktsk.)

ht was checking on our nails today. i straight away self-proclaimed and stand at the back LOL! he didn't even notice that he didn't check mine la. ohmygosh. okay so fine... i have to cut my nails ):

had chinese for first period. slack period :D hehehe. went to the hub to do our chinese project. i was freaking freezing inside sia ): then 老师 found out that it was frking SIXTEEN DEGREES CELSIUS! -_- ah well. planning to chiong and do well for this project. my very first project of the year! and yes, even though it's chinese, i will chiong it through (:

breaktime~! ate egg mayo :D been long since i ate that. before that was club, club and club some more. haha. had chemmy for the second period of break. didn't want to go at first. but in the end ravin forced me to go ): haha nvm. freezed there some more ): got 5/15 for my stoichiometry test. wth ): and yes, i still haven't took my atomic struture test. damn!

math was up next. sigh boring i tell you. no one to talk to. but nvm. no distractions. look on the bright side girl! (: start on graph today. argh sucks sucks sucks ): and i still have not caught up on my binomial!!!! sigh.

ht period. discussed on MImart :D were thinking of consigning/buying those compressed tshirts (: other than that. we really have no idea on what to sell... sigh.

met up with gpt after school. went through the article. she said it was quite well done. yay! hi-fives. hahaha. but still need to edit. and thanks very much, i need to bring the laptop to school on friday again ): will try to get the tablet. it's like ten times lighter -_-

ah well. need to eat now. ciao~

twohundredandtwenty.

coca-cola hangover (:

spotted this on deviantART. cute eh?

twohundredandnineteen.

jie brought joel home today for dinner. okay. uber AWKWARDD~ haha. but it's ok la :D

stayed home today again. pain ahhh ): stupid. i think need to find one super ultimate painkiller for me man ): dumbdumb. hate cramps to the core D:

oh well! now trying to do up my math. stupid binomial! ): ok fine. easy topic but i hate it -_- arghh. am thinking tmr after school do. anyway nothing much to do tmr just cca. which is quite bo liao right now. just watching them rehearse. haha. oh well!!! tmr then do. PROCRASTINATING~! (:

twohundredandeighteen.

wasa bathing when i suddenly thought of something. was thinking of taking a picture of a girl standing over the toilet sink, and holding a pregnancy test kit. two scenarios. first one is that the test comes out negative, and the woman will be looking dejected. dashed hopes. the second one is a positive result. and the woman will be looking damn sad. ok fine, dejected too. yeah, but the positive one would be hard to do. cause unless i can get a pregnant woman and get her to do the test (that's like super impossible) or i find one chemical which produces a positive result. that's hard too though.

then when i came out and was taking my painkillers, thought of getting a whole pile of tablets and pills and just snap that shot. that will be like super easy for me, considering the whole drawer of pills and tablets i have LOL!

oh well. see how. i'll do these when i'm free (:

thinking of getting a self-made french mani (:

twohundredandseventeen.

super bad day! ):

went to school early for the briefing. so damn boring i tell you. it's like the whole auditorium weren't listening to him. nearly slept. dint have much fun cause the guys were like sitting far away ): so i was bored like hell for that whole 2 hours.

found out that from tmr onwards won't have any assembly cause of the temp check. and guess what. we have to take our temperature TWICE A DAY! what the hell?! gosh even sars period was only once per day -_-

had only one period of bio today cause of the dumb temperature check. take up my lessons. zzz! was abit paiseh cause teacher asked me abt enzymes "lock-and-key" hypothesis. and thank you very much, i'd forgotten how to explain -_- so i stunned there for like one minute with the whole class staring then i started to stammer and answer like a teeny weeny part of the question =X whoops. like what the hell la. IT'S ENZYMES!! AND I COULD FORGET THE MOST BASIC TOPIC IN OLEVELS SYLLABUS?! argh.

gp class. nothing much happened. was a little moody. thanks ravin for trying so hard to cheer me up and sorry for not responding =X went through new topic : Culture and The Arts :D think i will kind of enjoy this topic. haha

BREAK TIME! :D ate club again. damn boring sia -_- after eating stayed in cafe for the first period. chat chat. stone. stare. daze. second period went off to library with ravin (yes, i know i have long nails and i won't cut them) sat with sharrifah, ben and gabe. crapped around for awhile then i started to copy my bio notes. while copying, iffah shared her music with me :D haha. and yeah that guitar is damn hot man! (:

chemmy period. three words. boring, boring, BORING! watch some funny video about the tenth dimension, courtesy of haron. okay, i dint understand anything at all. but nvm. the whole classroom was super uber stuffy la. aircon spoil or sth -_- ended up moving to another classroom down the block. ok, now it's super cold. tsktsk. humans. so hard to please eh?

CHINESE! ohmygosh. LISTENING COMPRE! can you believe it?! gosh. i can't believe i'm doing it -_- arghhhh. ended up was quite easy. haha. the standard was soooo much lower than sec school la! geez. k la. CLB students thr that's why (oops! this is not to all of them. i'm only aiming at ravin :D evil grins). while doing i nearly slept -_- omg. but in the end i chiong through :D without copying ok. just that someone behind me was like tapping my chair, tapping his pen, clearing throat. just to signal me to move away so that he could copy. ok, no name-mentioning here though.

end of the day! my stupid period had to choose this moment to come! irritating no? had cramps -_- roar. slacked in the canteen with ravin. gosh. much rolling eyes and suan-ing :D hahaha. waited till his training started then went off. shock of the day? mum was outside the school -_-

bus-ed down to jp. bought new shampoo :D but need finish my current one before i change. and yay! i finally got hair serum :D clairol dangerously straight. haha hope it's good :D went to popular and bought pens. one more colour to add to my signo collection! RED!! (: hehe. after that went to kopitiam for dinner. tempura ramen. quite nice. super flavourful. which means it's saltish o_o overall nice.

while waiting for bus, had a chat with mum. she said i could have one more earpiercing! hahaha. and i told her "ok, one last piercing in my institute life :D" well, she dint say much. so... hahah! ok, but no body piercings and tattoos (not even airbrush ones) hmm well. never mind.

pain, pain, PAIN!

twohundredandsixteen.

;LIVE
;LOVE
;BURN
;DIE

twohundredandfifteen.

can't wait for my MImart :D hahaha. damn excited and i don't know why. maybe it's because of the fact that i'll be working in a team again after a gazillion months!

need to go back to school at 8 tmr for some MImart briefing. sucks big time -_- am i contradicting myself? ok fine maybe i am, but seriously! the school's briefing makes you want to sleep. but never mind. looking forward to hear peeps talk crap and do funny and silly things :D takes my mind off things. hahahaha! don't know where i'd be without my friends.

speaking of friends, i really miss my sec school ones ): it's like so far the only classmate i've kept in contact with is only cindy. gosh!!! i miss my sec school life, yet i'm loving this new one :D hey, at least things aren't that bad in my institute :D

twohundredandfourteen.

eee, get this stupid cough away ):

I WANT MY CHOCOLATE MILK AND CHOCOLATES AND SEAFOOD AND FRIED CHICKEN WINGS AND FRIED PRAWNS AND SWEETS AND CHEESECAKES AND ICED LATTE AND MUCHO MANGO AND MORE MORE MORE!!!!!!

twohundredandthirteen.

goodbye, and it will be our last.

singularity~