twohundredandforty.

one huge mistake had to be made to make me realise how much i needed you. i felt as if idied a million times over when you found out and left me sitting there crying. i called and texted you but there wasn't reply. do you know how i felt when i sat there crying the whole time? i thought it was over. my heart was breaking so badly. i cried, i thought and i cried some more. on that day i realised i couldn't live without you. you were my life, my heart, my soul. i felt as if God made us inseparable. we couldn't live apart from each other. and i swear, i love you and only you. and never again shall something like this happen. i promise you. i love you. i need you here by my side always. no, i won't take you for granted anymore. i knew now what it's like to lose you, even if it was for that few hours. it still hurt. and it still does. you don't know how guilty i feel inside. i feel as if nothing can ever repay that amount of hurt i caused you. i guess retribution is slowly happening to me now. i deserve it. i'm sorry. i love you (: