threehundredandfiftyeight.

went to jp to shop in the afternn. wanted to get my sch shoes but i couldn't decide and we were rushed for time. but i got new footwear from CnK (:

after that went home, changed then went down to SG flyer. wanted to ride but got some problem with the coupon thing so ended up we didn't go. went over to marina's kbox after that. met up with aunts too. sang till about 11++? bus-ed then cabbed home.

anyway, the outing tmr is confirmed :D i am happy. and will be going over to ambush to have dinner with family and sean too. MY TREAT OKAY :P

threehundredandfiftyseven.

so i actually feel a lot happier and secure with you. so it's rumoured that the so-called honeymoon period lasts for the first few months, then the problems will start. yeah, i know problems WILL arise, it's part of any relationships. but somehow i know that if we ever face any problems, we will face them together, we will go through it together, and we will come out stronger than ever before. because i haven't felt this happy in a long time. because i haven't felt this secure before. because i feel safe in this relationship. because i know now what love is. because you have shown me.

i can't believe that we have gotten this far.

i♥D.

threehundredandfiftysix;;two is better than one

this song is dedicated to my one and only baby (: i love you!

I remember what you wore on the first day

You came into my life

And I thought hey

You know this could be something

'Cause everything you do and words you say

You know that it all takes my breath away

And now I'm left with nothing

'Cause maybe it's true, that I can't live without you

Well maybe two is better than one

There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,

The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste

You make it hard for breathing

'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away

I think of you and everythings okay

And finally now, we're leaving

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you

Well maybe two is better than one

There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking two, is better than one

Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day

You came into my life

And I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you

Maybe two is better than one

There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you

'Cause baby two is better than one

There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life

And I've figured out with all that's said and done

Two, is better than one

threehundredandfiftyfive.

yes, this suaku girl has finally found out how to transfer pics onto the com :P


bought this for cindy baby for xmas :D you owe me one prezzie k? :P


yeah, this is 5 cups of flour. imagine how much i needed to sift that night!


this is boiled maple syrup, butter, sugar and spices.




mixing in the flour!


my cookie dough :D


this is one of my mum's specialty: carrot cake. it's not yet baked duh.


my pretty xmas cookies :D
















doing the icing was tough but it was damn fun.

i just love seeing the looks on people's faces when they eat my cookies and say it's nice. gives me a really warm sense of satisfaction (:


BACON AND SAUSAGE! done by me :P


SALAD! done by me :P


WINE PUNCH! my love. hahaha


cold cut ham :D




mum's carrot cake.


another of mum's specialty: white choc cream cheese fruit tart. i'm sure aaron is super familiar with this right? :D


this is a super long fry i ate today :P


randomly taking the display cabinet. MCD'S TOYS! :D


and finally, a photo with my new hairstyle. hahaha! i just love the mirror in my dining room~

threehundredandfiftyfour.

6. Just because you L the C doesn't mean we have to S the D.

-50 things that girls wish guys knew, FB group.

I LOVE THIS!

threehundredandfiftythree.

thank goodness i'll be meeting my bestest buddy and D later. if not i think i'm going to stick with being a bitch for a few days.

threehundredandfiftytwo.

58. Call sometimes, just to say hi, not for a certain reason. When we see your number on caller ID, our heart always skips a beat. Try calling just to say good night, or good morning, its soo adorable!

-102 things guys should know about girls, FB group

threehundredandfiftyone.

51. We can fall in love with you without really knowing you, if you are an @ss, we will find out, and we will get over it. Fast. Don't ruin it.

-102 things guys should know about girls, FB group

threehundredandfifty.

12. If you're officially dating, and you're introducing her to your friends, you'd better damn well introduce her as your girlfriend. Or else.

-102 things guys should know about girls, FB group

threehundredandfortynine.

2. Be aware of all your girlfriends’ guy friends, brothers, fathers, or anything. They are protective. Every single male friend we have will kick your ass if you end up hurting her.

- 102 things guys should know about girls, FB group

*winks*

threehundredandfortyeight.

kite flying was a disaster today.

threehundredandfortyseven.

did carrot cake, cookies and white choc cheese fruit tart last night. pics will be uploaded once i find out how to transfer files from my phone to com and vice versa. LOL suaku :X

oh well, BACK TO WORK (: bye lovelies, merry xmas!

threehundredandfortysix.

59. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it... it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts.

-90 things girls should know about guys, FB group

threehundredandfortyfive.

29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.

-90 things girls should know about guys, FB group

threehundredandfortyfour.

i just found out 09S7 have been officially split. what a wonderful xmas present from MI.

threehundredandfortythree.

i say:
*monkeypigcatsalmon
he says:
*i think u can be a human zoo :P
i say:
*new breed
*imagine monkey head, pig nose and tail, cat paws, salmon body
*LOL

threehundredandfortytwo.

LALALA~!

going out to town with my girls and baby today. see deco and stuff. wondering if tanglin mall has the snow thing today :P then can go and play. hahaha! yeah, imagine wearing a dress and playing that. how unglam :X

oh well, if my phone can install plurk app, then i won't be changing over to twitter already (:

ok, going to look for something to eat now. bye!

threehundredandfortyone.

You Are Giving and Generous

You have a truly kind heart. You are naturally caring and nurturing toward others. You feel for people on a deep level. It's likely that you have many social causes that are important to you. It makes you feel good to be needed. You get just as much out of helping people as the people you help do. You have a lot of unconditional love for people, though it bothers you when you're not loved in return.

The Autumn Leaf Test

Blogthings: Learn Something Surprising About Yourself

threehundredandforty.

new phone! don't disappoint me :D

threehundredandthirtynine.

my shoulders seem to have a permanent ache in them.

threehundredandthirtyeight.

been so long since i stayed home the whole day. haha but now i'm bored.

looking forward to a really boring night ahead. NOT.

threehundredandthirtyseven.

I♥RED

because it's something which relates to anger, passion, happiness, shyness, and love.

threehundredandthirtysix.

aaron's words keep going over and over in my head. but now i know they're not true.

this is not a rebound relationship. it's something real.

it's something called love.

threehundredandthirtyfive.

YET ANOTHER 10 THINGS TO KNOW ABOUT ME.

#21. i love to take long train/bus rides no matter who is or isn't with me.

#22. I LOVE THE FOOD THAT MY BABY COOKS :D

#23. when i start loving someone truly, i won't stop so there's no need to worry.

#24. i feel really really really comfortable with you by my side.

#25. i tend to be quite open about things that happen to my body, so don't mind me :X

#26. i'm a real bitch sometimes.

#27. when i get high (hyper ah. not _____ :X), i get real high.

#28. yes, i'm very prone to accidents as you can see.

#29. NO, i'm not clumsy usually. i just tend to be a little clumsy with you :P

#30. did i mention that i love you? no? ok, I LOVE YOU.

threehundredandthirtyfour.

went out with evelyn in the morning to IMM to find gifts. it came when i reached IMM la -_- suay bo. at least i got my wish. it came EXACTLY one week before christmas :D

after that went to find dear over at pasir ris. slept through at his hse LOL second meal he cooked for me :D love you baby.

train-ed to boonlay and walked cindy home. bitched about BLK. it's no wonder his name starts with "ASS".

bought minjiangkueh for dinner. SO LONG NEVER EAT ALREADY!!! :D so now i just bathed and i'm waiting for my dearest to reach home (:

someone msged me this morning, so here's my reply to him. "no, you're wrong when you say that he can't. because a single minute spent with him is equivalent to a year spent with you. this is how i feel about him. and that was how i felt about you."

threehundredandthirtythree.

♥because life is all about us now.

threehundredandthirtytwo.

她：你从哪里来？

我：pasir ris

她：去那里干什么？

我：男朋友家咯

她：哇！那么远？值得吗？

我：当然值得！

(:

threehundredandthirtyone.

thanks baby for the lunch you cooked yesterday. i loved it! honestly. got your love as an added ingredient how can i not love :P

threehundredandthirty.

so i don't understand why guys tend to relate lipstick, and lipstick ONLY to cosmetic brands. all my life i have been hearing "oh so you're mabelline? you use maybelline lipstick la?", "wah that means you own lipstick company leh", "you're named after a lipstick brand!" i'm like, ok, either you're damn ignorant or you're just really pathetic. HELLO?! like cosmetics consists of only lipstick?! get a life. seriously, in my whole seventeen years of people teasing me about my name, i have only heard ONE GUY who talks about MASCARA and not lipstick.

note: why do i only talk about GUYS here? cause the girls are mature enough not to tease people about they're names.

yes, I LOVE MY NAME.

this is purely out of randomness and is not meant for anyone in particular.

threehundredandtwentynine.

work was hell yesterday.

received a call from siva even before i reached ambush, saying that it was really busy. so i rushed there and i saw charles doing one man show :S ERMM. haha like siva calls but charles is working -_- oh well. so once i stepped in i was rushing here and there. non stop till about 3 i think? aaron came in to eat :D haha ALONE. but cam came in much later.

AND THEN, it was boring. no customers, nothing to do, i was falling asleep. seriously.

AND THEN, dinner time was still empty. HA! so irritating.

my whole body was on auto shut down after closing.

AND THEN, you called and said that you were at jp :D and i was awake already LOL quickly gulped down my clam chowder, changed and met him. passed him his present :D:D (i'm excited to fix it up!!!) and i got a PIGLET!!! haha my 爱爱 LOL! yeah, for those who didn't realise, piglet is a male. my second love :P

anyway, walked down to cindy's hse and after passing her the books, he fetched me home. super tired.

thanks baby for going all the way down from pasir ris to jurong just to give me a surprise. really appreciate it!!! you made my lousy day so much better (: i love you.

threehundredandtwentyeight.

my jie said that she enjoyed her time with my highlighter and thanks it for its service.

JUST WHAT THE HELL DID SHE DO WITH MY HIGHLIGHTER?!

threehundredandtwentyseven.

last night i had a dream. nope, not a nightmare, but not a sweet dream either. it was something...different. something i have never thought of. something which made me think of everything.

i was standing in a really huge, empty room. with glaring white walls. it seemed like light was illuminating from them. i was blinded, momentarily. i couldn't stand looking at the intensity of the white. i looked away. i was afraid. i closed my eyes tight. i was afraid. i heard noises. i was afraid. and then i heard familiar voices, and i opened my eyes. there, on every space on the walls, was a picture. and these pictures seem to be moving. i looked at the one closest to me. it was a hospital room. a mother is carrying her new born child. a father is standing by the bed. i looked closer. the looks on their faces, was that of pure joy and happiness. i looked away, jealous that i have never seen those looks before. jealous that they were so truly happy because of that one baby.

i moved on to the next picture. i saw a father beating up a small girl. caning her, screaming at her. i looked closer and i saw another girl, an older one, trying to protect who i assumed to be her little sister. i looked away, because it reminds me so strongly of my family. i was choked up. i felt nauseous. i moved on.

kindergarten grad night. i see a young girl receiving her prize. she came in top. i see her parents and her grandmother applauding her, the pride on their faces were so evident. yes, this scene was familiar too. i looked closer, i stared at her parents. i jumped back. i stared hard at the girl. and i realised it was...me.

i started crying. i walked on. i looked at all those pictures. everyone of them was a memory of me. and some, memories of my parents and my sister. i couldn't stop crying. i saw, i felt, i cried. i couldn't stand looking at those pictures. but something kept me going. something was pushing me to move forward. i couldn't control anything. i screamed.

i woke up. shivering. my face was wet with tears.

threehundredandtwentysix.

went out with aaron and joalynn yesterday to find haron's present. train-ed down to city hall to meet aaron and we spent like super long time to decide what to eat. went to marina to find food and spend another long period of time deciding. and we ended up eating at MOF (some jap place). i ate salmon toji with rice and he ordered 3 fried stuffs and rice. joalynn just drank her drink (sounds funny :X) after ordering we asked for the alcohol menu and we got sapporo (: note to self: sapporo is disappointing. though the aftertaste is really sweet.

when i was calling for the alcohol menu, one of the waiters saw me, and i mean LOOKED DIRECTLY at me, and then he walked away. i was like WHAT?! -_- then aaron says that he saw my hair and was scared. LOL thanks ah.

my food came super fast (cause it's pretty much self-cooked, like steamboat thing). so i ate first. aaron's rice came with mine so he was like eating the rice alone. his food took like SUPER LONG!!! even after i ate finish and he finished his whole bowl of rice, and we still could wait for awhile more then the food will come.

funny story: i wanted to know how long the food was going to take, so i called the same waiter who ignored me. he came, and i was asking him, and his expression was super priceless la. he looks as if i'm going to eat him up like that -_- LOL! then after everything, i called him for the bill also, and that same look was on his face again. AM I THAT SCARY?! LOL

note to self: MOF's service sucks, food is just borderline, and serving time sucks. DO NOT GO THERE unless you have LOTS of time and you have nothing else to eat :D oh but dear said the desserts are nice. haha so i should go and try some day eh?

after eating walked down to penninsula. got shin guards for haron and cause joalynn was sort of rushing for time cause of church, we walked her back to city hall then me and aaron went over to dhoby, with him thinking of brownies at P.Osh. which, happened to be closed on that day. so since we were so tired, we sat down at some chicken rice stall and ordered a drink. heart-to-heart talk with him LOL! ok, i feel like i'm talking to one of my girlfriends. LOL! but then, i've had always felt more comfortable pouring out to a GUY than a GIRL. always been the case :S weird eh.

he accompanied me to wait for dear, sat there for like an hour maybe? thanks eh :D

went to spotlight cause joalynn wanted us to find rhinestones for we-know-what :P but they don't have it. ok, they have, but it's not one single size and a single packet. disappointing. so dear suggested art friend. there lagi worse. don't even sell at all. WHICH IS DAMN WEIRD. but nvm. so we walked to ion cause i needed to go prologue to get jie's highlighters. and they don't even sell rhinestones also. i thought rhinestones are part of scrapbook stuffs too ):

walked back to cathay cause we (ok, I) wanted to eat at aston's. went there and the queue was like wtf-omg-knn-super long. haha so, since i'm really lazy to queue and wait, we tried thinking of another place to eat. so yupp, repeat of lunchtime, we took really long to decide. stood at the railing really long and he even called his friend to ask where's nice to eat hahaha. and then, we decided on manhattan's. so we walked back to PS. when we were about to go in, i saw xin wang's beside, and THEN, fickle me wanted to eat there. LOL yeah i'm really hard to manage right. hahaha

i ordered cheese baked rice with pork chop. my favourite. and when it came, my only comment? "it's a really fat pig" it's a serious comment la LOL it has SOOOOO MUUUCCCHHHHHHH FATS!!!!!! :S so i spent like 10 minutes of my life separating the fats from the meat -_-

i think i'm ranting.

after we ate, i didn't feel like getting up so we sat there for who-knows how long. haha then he wanted to go arcade so i'm like ok, so let's go now then. note to YOU: basketball is a huge NONO for me. too many memories. haha

and so, we decided to go home. he fetched me home. haha east-side boy fetches west-side girl home (:

i think i'm mad already -_-

threehundredandtwentyfive.

MONSTER

I look down at myself and can't help but feel a rush of blood through my body. Through another body. This is my achievement, my pride, my love, the most precious thing in the world... I put my warm hands on my belly and smile. The life inside of me is kicking and alive. I will give anything, do anything... Anything at all to let it take its first breath, and many breaths after, and I can't wait to show him the world, and to share my life with another beautiful human being. One who is truly my own. One who has brought me joy for the past four months and will continue to make me happy for the rest of my life.

Will hasn't been happy lately, though.

I am sitting on the couch. In the living room. In the dark. It's 2.24am.

I am hearing my breathing, in the silence. I look down and I can feel it stirring against my skin. I am feeling sorry, sorry that I couldn't be there with Will at his company dinner.

The door clicked open and the whiff of alcohol, tobacco and... Something else... The smell made my stomach churn. I fought the nausea, I fought the tears. I held my baby for comfort. I held it tightly to remind me to stay strong. I looked at Will as he dragged his feet to the bedroom, undoing his tie at the same time.

In the next ten minutes, my whole world crumbled.

***************************************

I dropped Belle home from the clinic and rushed to the hotel for my company's annual dinner. We have done well and it was time for a real, good, long-awaited celebration. Alicia greeted me with a dazzling smile at the door, and we walked into the ballroom together. We parted to our own tables and the evening officially began. The food was amazing, the music was awesome and my god, the booze... The booze was heavenly!

Hell. It was a darn good break away from home. And drinking a little wouldn't hurt. She would be asleep by the time I get home anyway. Besides, the occasion calls for it so, why not?

The dinner went on for the next hour and the hall was bustling with hearty chats, laughter, well wishes... A while later, Alicia came over and sat next to me. From then on, I lost count of the number of glasses I had. Or we had, for that matter. Then she wanted to go outside for a smoke. I refused at first, since I don't smoke and I didn't want to bring back the stench back to my home. But she convinced me. I gave in and followed her...

I was tempted. She was all over me. I resisted. She was stunning. I pushed her away. She pulled me back. I told myself, one. I gave in. She continued. I took one step back again. She pulled me back again.

My mind was filled with thoughts of Belle. I thought of my baby boy.

I took a deep breath, turned and walked away firmly.

***************************************

"What happened?"

I didn't answer.

"What did you do?"

I didn't answer.

"What did you do?" This time in a louder voice.

"Nothing. I'm tired."

"Will!" She raised her voice this time. I hate the look on her face.

"I said nothing! Go to bed!" I raised my voice back at her.

She wouldn't give in and came closer to me.

"It's not nothing. I know it's not nothing. Is it her again."

Silence.

"Is it her?!" She screamed. Bitch.

"Yes, it's her! It's her alright! What do you want me to do, when you haven't given me sex for almost two months?? TWO FUCKING MONTHS!"

And then I lost all that I ever had.

***************************************

"What happened?" I asked softly.

He didn't answer.

"What did you do?" I asked again.

Again, there was no reply.

"What did you do?" This time in a louder voice.

"Nothing. I'm tired." I hate that nonchalant look on his face.

"Will!" I said, in a louder voice.

"I said nothing! Go sleep!" He screamed.

I felt a stab to my chest. My heart raced. I couldn't breathe properly. I decided to go closer to him and persist.

"It's not nothing. I know it's not nothing. Is it her again."

Silence.

"Is it her?!" I cried.

"Yes, it's her! It's her alright! What do you want me to do, when you haven't given me sex for almost two months?? TWO FUCKING MONTHS!"

My jaw dropped. I couldn't believe my ears. I took one step back with disbelief written all over my face. And another. And another. I felt myself boiling inside while my hands and feet turned icy cold. I was burning so much with pain inside that I was afraid that I was either taking up blood from the baby or I was pumping too much blood to him. But I couldn't calm down, no matter how much I tried...

I look down at myself and can't help but feel a greater rush of blood through my body. Through another body. Suddenly this is my horror, my nightmare, a monster... I put my cold hands on my belly and gritted my teeth, tears streaming continuously down my weary face. The life inside of me is kicking and alive. But I will give anything, do anything... Anything at all to get rid of it, because it suddenly became the monster that was in the way of Will and I. I felt sorry for it too because he's got a horrible Daddy and a not-good-enough Mummy.

I didn't want to be rash. I didn't want things to end this way.

But he's gone forever.


- Marjorie Ang

threehundredandtwentyfour.

just got back from orchard. watched PLANET51 with jie and sean. show not bad. quite funny and nice (:

after that took a long time to decide what to eat for dinner. went kfc in the end and was quite a disaster there -_- sean carried the food so my tray was left with 2 cups of pepsi. i carried it onto the sauce counter and one cup fell. awesome. i picked up the tray filled with pepsi and some just fell onto my hand. double awesome.

after dinner walked down to ION to see jie's organiser at art box. ended up looking at the calendars there. went home after that.

super tired and i still have to work full day tmr ): sheesh

threehundredandtwentythree.

ANOTHER 10 THINGS TO KNOW ABOUT ME.
#11. nuts are a NO-NO for me. don't even let me SMELL it.
#12. i hate newspapers because of the smell. that's why i don't read them.
#13. i love RED and GOLD (:
#14. i hate this number because it reminds me of someone.
#15. i'm a movie freak.
#16. i love THE IMPOSSIBLE QUIZ and i'll love anyone who is willing to do it with me :D
#17. i love surprises.
#18. i love to read (:
#19. did i mention that i love RED? :D
#20. i love the fact that i'm falling in love with you.
♥

threehundredandtwentytwo.

i just realised the background of the watch picture has a secondary one assessment book. fyi, that's NOT mine. it's my sis's for her tuition kid. LOL just so you know.

threehundredandtwentyone.

I LOOK SO TOOT NOW LOL! i shall not post any pics up unless i'm sure most of my friends have seen me in person LOL!

mum say i look pretty though. but that's prolly cause she's my MUM -_-

ok, here's a spoiler though. it looks like some egyptian goddess. and no, i'm not complimenting my hair. it just looks really really weird.

threehundredandtwenty.

10 THINGS TO KNOW ABOUT ME.
#1. my friends are top priority.
#2. some of my very close friends are guys.
#3. i have some love-hate relationship going on with my girlfriends. although how much i complain about them, i still love them alot.
#4. yes, i will actually pick a fight with you because of my friends.
#5. if i'm quiet, it doesn't necessarily means i'm thinking even though i look like i'm thinking. sometimes i'm just stoning.
#6. i tend to stone ALOT.
#7. if i'm quiet, sometimes it means i'm too tired.
#8. my words and actions may be deceiving. i actually expect people to understand the hidden meaning.
#9. i may be overboard sometimes but it doesn't change my feelings for you.
#10. if i love someone, i really DO put my heart into it no matter what i say or do.

threehundredandnineteen.

yes, what aaron said was really true and i know it.

what he said really made me stop and think.

but on the other hand, i guess my mind is pretty much made up

(:

threehundredandeighteen.

YAY!

visit to the salon tmr :D goobye beautiful messy long hair. and say hello to short shorter straight chemical-infused hair :D

wondering how to cut my fringe :X

threehundredandseventeen.

it takes a second to fall in love.
it takes a minute to say i love you.
but it takes a lifetime to understand the one you love.
and sometimes you can never truly know him/her even after death.

threehundredandsixteen.

i don't have any appetite to eat anymore
is that a good thing or a bad thing?
i'm losing weight.
is that a good thing or a bad thing?
my manager is still being really friendly to me.
is that a good thing or a bad thing?
i'm feel like i'm getting closer to my colleagues.
is that a good thing or a bad thing?
my manager told me i look mature for my age.
is that a good thing or a bad thing?
i really miss you.
is that a good thing or a bad thing?
♥

threehundredandfifteen.

feeling mood swings. damn shag and lousy now. sheesh. please let it come at least one week before christmas ):

threehundredandfourteen.

went to seoul garden for 4E4'08 class outing. met cindy at snow city cause she was working and we were late. train-ed over to woodlands. ate a little only cause i seriously have no appetite and i got full really fast.

came out and we all stink like BBQ -_- went to jp with cindy, glen and patrick. sat at mac to talk and charles and janice joined. left about 11.30+. bus-ed home. i'm super tired now.

and i still stink like bbq even after washing with soap more than once. it's so irritating. how am i gonna sleep tonight? hopefully it will be gone tmr cause i'm working! ):

anyway, i lost $10. wtf?

miss you like crazy.

threehundredandthirteen.

ok, i have finally decided to post pics LOL :P




ambush's brownie with icecream. looks yummy right? but thr's nuts and i didn't know and i ate it LOL! the brownie was just OK only la. it's so chocolatey that you eat dao jaded. looks are deceiving ;)


mummy bought this for me :D she says it's her childhood sweet. and then i told her "wah your childhood sweet so high class one ah." LOL it's pear and blackberry


SPINELLI!


this is my honey ginger chai latte. i love it :D i suddenly love hot drinks with spices in them :P




joalynn's cake. what is it again? :X


tcc's baked linguine with chicken cream sauce thingy. shared with joalynn for dinner :D








aaron's presents!!!! (ps i realised i forgot to take pics of his card! sheesh disappointing)


tried this on. it's the male one you know? LOL female one no stock ): anyway daryl said he's gonna find one pullover for me in paris :D i told him to get RED :P


bought this at diva. NICE RIGHT :D it's rubber bands


he bought this for me (: like as a "surprise" cause i thought he's buying for himself. but then he KNOWS i will get hungry in the middle of the night. 我不舍得吃! :X


his watch :D i stole it from him LOL! no laa.

threehundredandtwelve.

"Beginnings are usually scary and endings are usually sad. Its everything in between that makes it all worth living."

threehundredandeleven.

"Dreams are a gift given to us so we can see those we love in times when we cannot."

thank goodness for dreams (:

threehundredandten.

310th post.

i want you to promise me something and i hope you're able to keep it(:

threehundredandnine.

seven kilos heavier than me for a guy your height, it just isn't normal LOL :P

anyway, now that you're off to paris. i gotta hit my books whenever i'm free. school's reopening real soon and i have to study if not i will suffer for the start-of-term tests and of course, common test.

not only that, i have to shop for christmas presents too. already know what to buy for a few people and i still have to think of what to get for others. hmmm ):

got a 4E4 class outing later in the evening. seoul garden@causeway. some how i just don't have the mood to go. haha maybe i'm just too tired. or maybe it's because...

threehundredandeight.

why do people want to fall in love with me? i'm just like a broken doll which can hardly be fixed. even when i look fixed, i'm just really fragile and will just break any moment. i'm hard to handle. i'm hard to control. and no, i'm not as happy as i seem. and yes, i'm just some depressed psycho. oh, did i mention that i may have really bad mood swings every month?

did i scare you off?

threehundredandseven.

why are you flirting now?
i'm not.
yeah right.
flirting and sweet talking means that you're not serious about it at all.
so what do you call it then? what you're doing now?
it's called falling in love.

threehundredandsix.

once upon a time i would have agreed with those who insulted MI.
but now, whoever insults MI = insulting me.
so fuck those who think MI is crap.
who says only the hopeless go there.
who says there isn't anyone who can have really good grades there.
i'm sorry i'm being harsh.
but seriously,
you have never been to MI.
how the fuck do you know that it's crap?

threehundredandfive.

went out with daryl to amk today. OKAY, SORRY FOR BEING LATE!! LOL i'm really usually not this late :X stepped into amk hub and it was FREEZING ): thanks for lending me your jacket even though i have one on my own and you repeatedly refused to take your jacket back :P

$300 for throwing cigg butt on floor? now you know why SG government is so fking rich?

went up to get tix for newmoon (: the queue was soooo long :S and it was so crowded for a friday afternoon. oh well, school hols always like that. got the tix and we thinking of what to eat and settled on mac. it was already 2+ and the movie starts at 2.30 LOL! after eating went back to watch.

new moon was ok la. just liek twilight, more talking and less action. I CAN'T WAIT FOR BREAKING DAWN :P though will it be M18 or sth? hahaha cause the book is quite violent and has like sex scenes :X and NO, i'm not looking forward to it because of that -_-

ok, after the movie i was seriously freezing like hell so we went out to walk then went over to mellben.

thanks for accompanying me there and waiting with me :D

he went off when mum and dad were reaching. dinner was...satisfying? ok truth, i didn't have much appetite so i ate really little but i felt really full. ah well, used to eating dinner at 10+ already. bus-ed home after that. 165 then 154 at clementi.

this is the FIRST TIME i didn't even think about him when i'm in clementi.

so yes, i'm back home now and i just saw someone's tweet and i'm like "hehe, are you talking about me?" -blush- LOL :P

twilight@amkhub
new moon@amkhub
breaking/continuing the trend for eclispe and breaking dawn?

threehundredandfour.

just something to think about (:

i guess it's cause you yourself know how it feels and it's hard for you to stop cause it's already a habit for you. and you just dont want to see your loved ones going the same path as you. and we have nv once stopped to think that these loved ones are also hurting to see us destroying ourselves like that.

threehundredandthree.

SUPER BUSY NIGHT TONIGHT. unbelievable. nearly died in bar tonight. haha thanks charles for clearing the orders that one time it came a few at once (: thanks colin and rachel for helping too even if you had your own things to do. i think i will confirm be dead w/o you ppl. love love! :D

went bowling too! ok, i admit, i SUCK LOL who can train me :P i got 23 for the first game and 34 for the second. you tell me suck or not LOL oh well.

threehundredandtwo.

could this be...?

threehundredandone.

♥shayneorok.

spending my time listening to shayne orok on youtube (:

anyway, had a super fun time yesterday :D worked full day and i did BAR!!! :P finally hehehe. still don't know how to make coffee though. but i love it :D hope tonight can work bar again! after work me, cheryl, rachel and charles did the christmas deco. super fun i tell you. we had to untangle the ribbons and stuff. haha was abit depressed at one point cause they were asking me about B but i got over it fast (p.s. hours can go by w/o me thinking of B)

did the deco till 12+ and we cabbed home. shared with cheryl and rachel(: well, tonight after work most prolly going bowling with ambushers♥

and someone is going paris. i'm jealous :P

threehundred.

Shayne Orok - Nightmare

it's not you
that brings these tears to my eyes
it's not you
that makes me sad

it's that you don't
care who you're leaving behind
i'm gonna miss you
i'm gonna miss you

time keeps turnin' as i'm breakin down in this room
only a few more hours 'til you go

don't wanna fall deeper into this nightmare
not if i can't be with you
if there's a way to end my suffering and pain
then please won't you rescue me

is my heart
somethin' you played with for fun
or did you really love me
like i loved you

can you come back
so you can see what you've done to me
there's no way out of this mess

can't move on with these feelings inside my head
not this regret or this emptiness

don't wanna fall deeper into this nightmare
not if i can't be with you
if there's a way to end my suffering and pain
then please won't you rescue me

don't wanna fall deeper into this nightmare
not if i won't be with you

twohundredandninetynine.

hello world. (:

was surfing youtube and came across this guy shayne orok. he sings and does cover versions of songs and i tell you, his voice is just great! search him if you have the time (:

another thing, i was watching his videos and i came across come home by one republic. he dedicated this song to a guy named dustin from germany. apparently he has some heart problem and was going to die (p.s. i don't know if he's alive now). anyway, just read dustin's blog. it's so sad and touching and really inspirational.
http://www.duselk.blogspot.com/

enjoy(:

twohundredandninetyeight.

went out yesterday to give aaron his surprise party (: joalynn came over at about 12 to help me carry the things and pack the cake. waited for cam and we cabbed over to vivo together.

gave aaron a surprise with the cake :D met him over at sentosa. hoped he liked everything! :D ate the cake from the box :P messy i tell you. i was trying to cut the cake and we ended up deciding to eat from the box. fun though (: after that played volleyball. super fun and funny :P

left with joalynn and aaron at about 6? showered and went over to changi cause joalynn wants to place order for the tcc cake. went to popeye's chicken to eat. the fries and mash potato is like super awesome la :D first time eating :X went up to tcc then. decided to eat dessert so we went over to coffee bean. BUT, the cakes there super limited. all not very nice ): so we skytrain-ed to T2. ps. it's aaron's favourite transport LOL too bad we weren't at the front cabin. wanted to go starbucks there but we saw swensens :D and ended up eating there. me and joalynn ate only though, topless 5 with blackforest, sticky chewy chocolate, thin mint, lime sherbet and frosted malt. with toppings marshmallow and hot fudge. fyi, the marshmallow is in liquid form. very nice (: crapped alot there with DRUGS LOL! :P

train-ed home after that. laughed so, so hard. he got off at cityhall. then we were pretty much quiet in the train then cause we were very tired. reached home about 12? (:

thank you darlings aaron and joalynn. i haven't had much fun since THAT happened. love you guys (: